Feels like I don't know what I want. Feels like there's two me inside, struggling and screaming and I can't hear anyone distinctly. Am I doing to someone what others did to me? Am I teaching a smile just to wreck it later on? Is there a right path, which inner voice can I listen to? Do I have to get hurt again, do I have to hurt someone? How can they talk about redemption, vengeance, salvation? Is there a way out?